> My unseen sins

~~Friday, July 31, 2009~~

11:18 PM

I want a hair makeover!

I'm so sick with my hair right now. It's messy and looks dry and unkept. I want something different. I would to have a mixture of red and cappucino colour. Back to the v end shape. Layered and sexy waves. Stepping fringe. Bahahahahaah! Fuck uh. I hate my hair uh. So messy. Hopefully,my mum would treat me to a hair spa during my birthday. Oh please I would be pleased.

Today wasn't great at all in school. I must say,school really bore my ass out. Met Atikah and I must say,I miss her alot! Her cat so cute.. We chatted for almost more than an hour. Then got free show. Someone fight like no one is there. Oh well. I'm used with fightings so nothing new to me.

Dear! Engraved pendant next aytes?? ehehehehehe.. Ehk ehk don't forget your so called treat to the massage parlour next month. I'm so eager.

Pictures of you and me will be up. In few minutes from now...

+ You're blinded by her beauty. +

.I Wrote This Shit.

~~Wednesday, July 22, 2009~~

9:33 PM

And I shall..

I shall prove it to you. I shall prove it to all the people around me. I will and I do. Don't trust me? Fuck you. I know myself and I know it well. I will.. I will..

I will be somebody and I shall prove it to you. For you,for my family,for myself,for her,for us.. Your brain and my heart. 2 fucking years as you can see. You know it yourself. And I shall fucking prove it to me. I take the challenge. If I fail to prove it,I shall take all the consequences without a tear. I swear and I shall. Let's see for the upcoming test of mine. Settle? Deal and fucking done. Just see for yourself........

Much sincerity,
I'm Khairiyah,prefer to be called,Ell.

.I Wrote This Shit.

~~Thursday, July 9, 2009~~

12:22 PM

Can't let the music stop.

I'm making a gift. But I won't be giving it,not until its over. You know what I mean. Yes,its 2 fucking years already. Happy? Of course. But,there's a hidden emotion playing hide and seek with me. Oh well. We have postpone the celebrtaion on 12 July,this Sunday. But I've no idea where to bring him. Like usual,I'm the one planning and such. Kinda fucked up but oh well. Watodo. He changed me alot,from the inside to the outside. But so what right? Everyone change. But still,I would like to be a somebody,too. I wonder who I am in my exes eyes. I wonder who I am in his eye. A junk? Or someone special? Name me fucker.

I was wondering too. What is woman honour? Girls cry for the guy who left them. Girls get raped from dogs. What is guys honour then? Lust? Oh well. I'm just too lazy to talk about this. For guys become dogs after seeing girls wearing skimpy clothes. Are you sluts? If you are,then go join Geylang. There's lot of guys you can pick from. There's dogs,there's the rich ones and of course the old faggot bastard.

School ain't fun anymore. Larry and Arnold would eventually approach me and asked to join them. But they stink. I know I'm rude. But what can you do? Fuck you!

Ain,ehk kau nie tukar url ehk?! Ape crite nie.. Haiyoo.. Anw,thanks for the wish babe. Bile mau jumpe nie! Geram aku.

+ I shall beat you down,fucker. +

.I Wrote This Shit.

~~Tuesday, July 7, 2009~~

12:03 AM

happy 2 years anniversary,my dear nat.

things happen real fast and we've reach our 2nd year together. my dear,i had a great time with you all these months. hopefully,today we won't fight okay? i love you.

.I Wrote This Shit.

~~Monday, July 6, 2009~~

1:08 AM

I just love editing. And I love cameras with stupid images,like me. Love you,readers. But I love nat more. Too bad. :p

.I Wrote This Shit.

12:32 AM

You're my murderer.

You kill my fats. You kill my hyper-active disorder (as if). Now you wanted to kill my love for chocolates. You even wished that I would be a vegetarian. Am I that fat? Am I? At least I don't wear the size M ok? I can still fit XS and for goodness sake I've been controlling what I'm eating. I hardly touch those snacks. pffffffffftttttttt.. PATHETIC.

School is in few hours time. Though I miss a few of the mates,but I did not miss school at all. I'm tired of saying it again. But I miss evss..

Hopefully,me and berok will succeed in forming a band together. And yea.. Sorry,my dear..

+ I shall,somehow,kill you. +

.I Wrote This Shit.

~~Sunday, July 5, 2009~~

2:39 AM

I shall rip off your tongue if you can't stop bitching.

The special day is near. A day that I never did expect it to happen,eventhough I wished for it. Hopes and dreams die ever since a tragedy strikes us. I was,slowly killing my love. I am afraid if it happen,twice. Twice. twice. twice.

I can't share. Not anymore. Not even the one I trusted so much. This few days,make it a whole month straight,I can't sleep well. Late nights staring,chatting,flirting,wondering and as usual,dreaming of the sugary scenery. I would prefer keeping silence rather than bitching,backstabbing one another. This is the reason why I don't really like to befriend with girls. Especially those who is a total bitch.

Things happen unexpectedly. And also,happen for a reason. But,what is the reason? Can any fucked up fuckers tell me the answer? I'm not saying I don't,but I still do. He is the only one I have in my heart.

I miss my darlings. I miss having them by my side almost everyday,except weekends. I miss class gathering. I miss the lovely laughters and fucked up jokes.

Hey dear,today is Sunday. How many more days uh? ahah.. i love you,my short man!

+ Necklace of love. +

.I Wrote This Shit.