> My unseen sins

~~Saturday, June 20, 2009~~

2:46 AM

Emotion strikes once you step on my foot twice.

I was thinking. Of all the people I know in the past. And all the mistakes plus the sins I've made. I remember clearly what he had told me before. A stick in between my fingers,words and advices in my head. I was being totally childish and jealous all over. The taste of regret ain't so sweet afterall. It kills the people around me and so it kills me too.

Fucked. Screwed. Screamed. Die.

I smoke. I drink. I lie. I screwed the whole shit out of me. Maybe,smoking and drinking isn't that bad. But,hurting others? Hurting physically can be cured with any medications applied. But to hurt someone at the heart,may cost you to lose their trust,friendship that was so strong as ever. But how do you cure a person heart? It will,over times to come but we can still feel the pain,onl if we were to think back. The faces of the gorgeous ladies,the faces of the charming dudes. I've lost a friend,someone that always makes me laugh. Eventhough we aren't that close before and then. Eventhough we only knew each other only for a few months. Thanks for the help and you're courages words.

Majority of the parents,goody good guys would expect a girl who doesn't smoke,drink and faithful. But,do they ever think what makes a goody good girl turns to be the bitchiest bitch fucked up ones? I guess not. For the people they love cause them to be this way. And I've my reson for being this way.

A few friends' of mine told me that they don't understand why I've to keep things to myself. For,they have yet to know me better. I really miss my friends'. But now,where are they? They didn't even call me up for any outings or plan something to spend quality time together. I may not be the one who likes to keep shut and do things together. Wear expensive clothes like a walking wardrobe,like my dear nat would say so. But what I get is bitching behind each others back. What the hell??? I may not be close with you people anymore but you know very well how I treasure you people. I may be leftout,but hey,I'm still here,waiting for your messages and calls. But not a single one. Thanks,this is just great.

Yes,I'm hinting to this people. But I would not want to expose their names here. For they should know who they are. I do believe,people change. But I only hope for the best. Those who have worsen,then its not my loss. All the best for your next life aye?

I care for you. I keep shut when you wanted to let go of your anger. And you said I'm stepping on your head? tsskk.. Now its my turn to tell you this. One day,you will see the beauty of the things I've done to you.

A man stood there,convey-ing messages after messages. Facts of life. When? Where? How? What? I keep that in mind. For you inspired me,most.

Another man,having his butt rest on the chair with a stick of ciggerettes. Convey-ing a message. With proper manners and apologising if it ever make an impact to me. Though the face expression sucks,his another inspiration.

I would be glad to listen,not answering question,from these two man.

Now,I'm cycling my way in becoming a rockstar. Dad is helping out with guitar lessons. My dear nat is helping out with vocals. I may not in a band,but hopefully I can achieve something out of this. And yes,those two are my most beloved at heart. One day,we will be somebody. All of us will. Patience,my dear.

+ I've lots more to say. But will you listen? +

.I Wrote This Shit.