Here's a story of a girl,
 Living in the lonely world,
 A hidden note, A secret crush,
 A little boy who talks too much.

Well, I'm standing in the crowd,
 And when you smile I check you out,
 But you don't even know my name,
 You're too busy playing games,

And I want you too know,
 If you lose your way,
 I won't let you go.

If I cut my hair,
 If I change my clothes,
 Will you notice me?

If I bite my lip,
 If I say hello,
 Will you notice me?


VadiellaY

-Vadiella-

Fuck it!Y


The SacrilegiousY

My Star.

Star Fruit.
Beng Sticko.
Hady Molly.

Faeza Darling.
Khaleeda Sweetie.
Ummairah Sweetheart.

Lyza Chip'munk.
Weeeee Kiong.
Shahmir SSS
aYEEN Hearts <333
aYEEN Hearts <333

The glorious;

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Saturday, May 30, 2009
10:31 PM

Try dig me out why.


I'm not quite in the fix. I'm angry,I'm sad,I'm lazy,I'm fucked up and I'm pissed. I don't know why. I went out alone earlier,walk around my area,walk around Sunplaza. There's no sight of friends',my friends'. His sleeping,I'm lost. No one to slack with la siol!!! Din! I miss you. Star! I miss you. Hadi! I miss you. Majid! I miss you. Kelly! I miss you. Faeza! I miss you. Ummairah! I miss you. Atieq! I miss you.

I'm sick and tired of missing people. Do you miss me??? Who miss me?? Who ehk??? Lalalalalala...

I'm bored. No one to talk,no one to joke. Fuck,no son no fun siol. Get me?? No? Kill me!


+ I need sticks of tobacco to keep me constant. +

.I Wrote This Shit.

1:47 AM

Why issit so wrong?


Urgh. I need excitement,fun,something that can make me lagh my ass out. Everyday of my life,its getting bored. What else can I do beside slack,smoke and eye-candies. June holidays is up and I've yet to plan my days. But with what,who,where? That's one major thing to think. Maybe I can meet up with old gf like Ain or Lyza,but what shall we do then if we were to go out together? Hmm..

Must I get scolding and such? Haish.. I swear I can't sleep. Not even a message of love. Great huh? I wiwsh I don't own a heart. So i won't care for anyone.

+ Kill me if it kills you +

.I Wrote This Shit.

Thursday, May 28, 2009
11:41 PM

Worried and sick.


Next week will be my exam and I'm not ready. I've been playing a fool and not been focusing on my studies. Regretting is just the stupidest thing I should be in. Now,I'm catching up and remembering formulas and such. Just fucked up.

I don't find school is happening anymore. Just plain boring. I swear if I were to turn back time,I would take a course more to my interest so I can do better. Just fucked up.

I'm so catching up during holidays. An,Ard,help me out ehk? :]
Updating pictures soon enough after I'm done with neopets.

+ Life isn't wonderful anymore. +

.I Wrote This Shit.

Thursday, May 21, 2009
10:31 PM

Colourful Sky.


I miss my old life. The times I use to be crazy and an idiotic bitch. The times we judge and made assumption among my lovely girls. Stupidity everywhere. ITE life may suck at certain area,and may be fun too to a certain extent. Urgh. I miss old times'.

Thanks for the concern and friendship given sweetie. You're the only person I can rely on in class. Appreciate your kindness An. :]

Seems that the dress I've been wanting won't fall in my hands. No luck on me,again. Just fcking great. Nothing great to share here except that I miss my lovely babes and my dear bf around me at most times.

+ Uncle,where's my chocolate?? +

.I Wrote This Shit.

Sunday, May 17, 2009
3:17 PM

Not feeling lucky.


Goodbye lovely dress. I'm not getting the dress that I've been wanting so much. Why? I got money matter. I can't even save and I just love to buy things that I love so much. I'm totally upset mum is not lending me a few bucks for the dress.

I'm want to be alone. I don't wish to talk to anyone. Maybe a good laugh to forget the dress will do. Sorry. I'm pathetic. I'm not as lucky as you bitches. You can get whatever you want despite the cost. But I've to earn my own money to get what I deemed. And his angry at me. So not my day.

+ Fuck Paradise. +

.I Wrote This Shit.

Monday, May 11, 2009
9:43 PM

Fucking sickening.

My laptop is giving me major problems. Now,I can't update my Tagged,Facebook nor my blog oftenly. Fuck ain't it? The current laptop I'm using too gives me the fucked up feeling. I just receive the pictures of me and dear and now I can't upload it here. I just want to update pictures of us at Tagged and Facebook. Fuck la. I think I'm buying a new laptop. And I received a job!!! As a promoter!!! Wooohoooo! 6 bucks pe hour! Yahoooo!!!! Now I can shop my dresses and also buy for dear the boxer I've promised! Then I would like to buy contact lenses and make up. Weeeheeeeee!

Isn't a trade for a trade suppose to be a fair one? Must a trade of honesty with a lie? Reason forgetting is just fucking lame. For a mistake,one always remember and always remind themselves not to do it again. What the hell? My body aches like hell not a kind soul would want to give a good massage. Fuck la! I'm pissed. With laptop and the conditions in school. I was called a loner. From hyper to a lone? Wow. That's fucking different. I can't wait to end ITE life as having guys around everyday can make me cry. But don't get me wrong. I love my friends there. Especially Farhan and Ardillah and a few more chinese idiots. They are there for me when I'm in need in school. :]

Baby you ignored me and not inviting me out,that's sick.


+ The hell for you idiots! +

.I Wrote This Shit.

Tuesday, May 5, 2009
8:18 AM

A fucked up morning.


Hate it when I've to rush then when I've stepped in the lift,he said forget it. What the fuck?! Really. It is so sickening. I hate being kind when not really appriciated. Fuck okay? FUCK AH!!!

I'm not liking this at all. I don't feel like going to school. I hate it.

+ You don't even care. Fuck aytes? +

.I Wrote This Shit.

Sunday, May 3, 2009
7:59 PM

Baby I love it!!!


I had tons of fun today dear!!! So yea,we had picnic today at Pasir Ris. We really like having our quality time and no one to disturb us at all! We did stupid stuff and take quite a number of pictures. Soon to update. Atlast! New pictures coming up! We had lunch at Burger King and I miss the taste of that Mushroom Swiss burger. Yummy! It has always been a dream and something I've been wanting so much to have a picnic just the two us dear. You're the best boyfriend I've ever had! Thanks dear for all the fun we had today!!! Love you!!!

Exam is so around the corner and I've lots to catch up and mesmerized the formulaes. Sorry my lovely darlings. Three weekends,I'm having it off. I need to study. But still,I hope we can have lunch together every Friday my lovely ladies!! Atleast,we need quality time together. And to my gorgeous Faeza,get well soon aytes. If you leg still hurts then go cut off and stick it with Angelina Jolie legs. Or maybe the nyonya that sells tissue at Orchard Road leg. ehehehe...

Can't wait for holiday! I'm so planning holidays wisely with both girlfriend's and boyfriend's!!! I love them both! Kill you both also can.

+ I'm just too happy with the day spent with sayang. +

.I Wrote This Shit.

Saturday, May 2, 2009
1:27 PM

Only a few hours has past.


So yea. Bored bored bored and bored. The only word that is stuck in your mind. Seriously,its not that hard to just sit at home watch tv,gmes or maybe guitar. Unless you are a girl ah. Then help out with the stupid fucking chores ah that I hate so much to do. But atleast it occupied my time. So yea,I wanted to play a game with anyone who is online but none. So,as per normal.. Go online and find people who has a band and introduce them to his band then they share their secrets and thoughts and whatever that has to do with music. Don't get me wrong,I'm done flirting online. 'Cause evetually,I'm not meeting them nor go out together to meet and have lunch or some sort.

I've bought food for tomorrow. Gotten snacks but not yet gotten the chocolate that I'm craving for. I miss that fattening shit. I just did my 50 cruches and push up. Swear its tiring. Meeting Hadi after 5. Getting my uniform then slack for awhile until 7 maybe? Just say Hadi has lots of things to do so have to wait somehow.

Whatever. I got the agitated feeling and feel like punching people's face. Early morning,went to Mustafa Centre with family and the boys that includes my dad waited outside while we search for make up kits. Got this indian man actually followed us and keep looking at us. I was so irritated and fucked up I stare at that man and just said to him "Fuck off you fucking pundek before I call the cops." Lucky he went away. If not,I can just shouted out molest or anything that can get him into trouble. Urgh. Hate those kind of people.

His bored and his making me feel guilty. But hell,we can meet tomorrow sia. He should have known better about my dad. If I were to go out today,its impossible for me to go tomorrow. So ya,don't get me into trouble la. If nk klua,g ah. G jumpe betina mane yg boleh lyn u sumer. Aku kan sumer tkleh. Boring bitch,

Fuck uh!!!!

+ After a long time of absence from religion. +

.I Wrote This Shit.

One Last Goodbye - Anathema