> My unseen sins

~~Monday, March 30, 2009~~

11:17 PM

What's left for me?

I feel like a junk. Useless as ever. I've nothing better to do. No invitation to slack. No calls to share their stories. His out,working for 21 hours today. All I feel is just restless. I don't think people need me or want me anymore. They only need me when they need help,advices,opinions or entertaining them,like him for an example. But me,none gives me that entertainment. Urgh. Its eating me.

7 different countries. That's my dream and I want to achieve it. Don't care if I'm married or attached. I would love to go around the 7 different countries with the person I deemed. What's the need of being a bachelorette when the fact is you're attached? Having atleast 5 social escort? Urgh. Maybe guys just love the sick satisfaction. Just maybe they just love making their partner jealous and crying their heart out. Of course,not all guys are the same. But where can we get those who is faithful and of course,trustworthy? Major of it are just jerks and fuckers. And I don't find a need to wonder why some girl's would call themself as butch/endro/lesbians. 'Cause guys,sometimes just doesn't deserve ones loyalty. May love can't buy love,but atleast money gives happiness,to a certain extent.

Insecure. That's the thoughts and feelings I'm having. But he can never get this feeling. Why? His not even afraid. Me? Forget about me. I'd rather smoke my ass off and spend my life doing nothing.

Not even a single text saying goodnight. Busy much? Another busy man coming right up to join those fellas. I'm not in a right state of mind.

+ You're not here anymore. Alone,I presume. +

.I Wrote This Shit.