Here's a story of a girl,
 Living in the lonely world,
 A hidden note, A secret crush,
 A little boy who talks too much.

Well, I'm standing in the crowd,
 And when you smile I check you out,
 But you don't even know my name,
 You're too busy playing games,

And I want you too know,
 If you lose your way,
 I won't let you go.

If I cut my hair,
 If I change my clothes,
 Will you notice me?

If I bite my lip,
 If I say hello,
 Will you notice me?


VadiellaY

-Vadiella-

Fuck it!Y


The SacrilegiousY

My Star.

Star Fruit.
Beng Sticko.
Hady Molly.

Faeza Darling.
Khaleeda Sweetie.
Ummairah Sweetheart.

Lyza Chip'munk.
Weeeee Kiong.
Shahmir SSS
aYEEN Hearts <333
aYEEN Hearts <333

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Tuesday, September 9, 2008
7:10 AM

Pretending is better than showing

You called. Yeah I'm glad,happy and I smile with full of,only god knows what. But I'm dissapointed,mad,hatred and yeah,still only god knows what. You've move on. You have have met her. I bet you have express your feelings for her. Why the shit you need to call me out of loneliness and ask me how am I doing? What am I suppose to answer? Fucking hell I'm doing great with someone I just met? Or fucking hell I'm missing you and like a desperate bitch for you,waiting for you like waiting for the stars to drop onto my hand? And why wait for my messages? You jolly well know what I would message you and that can hold you back with sympathy for me.

I swear it irks me. And I swear this pain will only wear off when I found a new hobby and maybe new friends. Enough killing me?? Huh?? You can paste that heart of yours with a new piece of paper easily. What about me? It takes a longer time to heal,motherfucker! You asked and tell me I'm pretending. What the fuck?!? Am I suppose to show that I'm weak and can't live without you?

I'm gaining my dignity and self-esteem. Someone told me,better off to lose someone you love rather than your dignity and self-esteem. I have N'level to sit for. You and your fucking O's. Ask that bitch to call you every now and then and entertain you. I'm not blaming you for letting go of me. I gain pain I lose you. That's it. Atleast I don't gain shame and lose almost half of my life. I won't be dumb enough to fall for your fucking tricks. You want to tell me you feel? Yeah you do but why now after you walk off of my life? What can I do? I can't call my dearest love anymore. I can't console you with sweet words. We are merely friends after love. Now,I really hate the term,lovers to friends. Its akward and ya,hurts.

This is life as someone told me this. This is relationship. Risk,like you said,my ex lover. Now I'm taking this fucking risk to fucking type this thing so you can know,you can move on with peace. Don't think about us or our memoirs. The hell with. You left me with memoirs,that's for sure. The songs we use to sing,hell I must say,only god knows. I'm not treating you as a bastard. Neither I hated you. I'm just dissapointed,sad and such. Let people say your a bastard. I use to be a bastard in the eye of your friends'. The hell I just don't care as I realise,it is my mistake.

I'm typing nonsense. And again,I'm sorry my darling friend. Now,I pity you.

To my this friend of mine,sorry. Hehehe.. I know I shouldn't post this but yea.. Better let him know.. You are the councillor I met. I love your advice.

I am a strong girl. And I am moving on without you now. Happy?

+ Shut up and just move on with your new bitch. +

.I Wrote This Shit.

One Last Goodbye - Anathema