> My unseen sins

~~Monday, September 15, 2008~~

11:14 PM

Guilty Pleasure.

A girl,who has been hurt,a pain that stained. A girl,who can't accept the fact,that the one she love has gone. A girl.. Whose now,lost in this world that's full of obstacle. She tripped,and restlessly lay on the ground. She don't wish to stand up. She don't wish to wake up. She hope that everything is just a dream. She lived with sins after sins. With a guy she deemed fit. She loved him. She sacrifice all her wants,her family and her dignity. She was a weak,hopeless girl. But she has a wonderful dreams that she has been chasing for all the while. She is loved,and care by the people around. And she was hated,a bitch to a misjudged eye.

She became calm,brave and strong since the July 7th,2007. She's foolishly in love with someone that won't last till ever. She was taught and she learned. She was tame like a kitten. She endure the words that hurts but she never thought she had fallen for a wrong guy. She shed tears for the guy. Tears of joy,tears of pain. Trust was priorities and thus honesty. It seems that he had litted the candles that showed her what life is about. It was heaven. But the candles was blew by him too...

It all turns black after August 31th,2008. It crumbles down badly that makes her feel that she's dying. A heavy rock has fallen onto her head that makes her hard to move on. Now,she's left with a huge decision to make.

N'level is what I'm facing right now. And I'm facing a big shame for doing a big mistake. I'm running away from the troubles I made. Major mistake. I'm a coward now. A total bitch. I was frame evil,another chapter has begin.

I had cause an innocence,pure guy hurt,badly. I'm sorry for him.

I just need a longer time to get over the break up. I just need someone who really understand. My friends,are always there for me. But somehow,I need someone who can guide me too. Plain innocence,but deep inside,full of revenged and somewhat pain.

Emo. That's what he told me. But I just can't get over it.

I was told. I'm a great girl. I agree to a certain extent but hey,don't hope I will stay that way. People change,mind you.

Izuddin. A guy I hurt him now. I'm sorry. I'm escaping from your grip.
Taufik/Nat. My belove ex. Your gone. You left me with pain.

Guilty pleasure. That's what I'm feeling. I'm done with my bad behaviour. I shall move on. With the help of friends.

My love was left once again
This heart has yet to be tamed,once again
No one is reading this
Except for those I only trust

+ Evil. That's in me now. +

.I Wrote This Shit.