> My unseen sins

~~Wednesday, August 20, 2008~~

3:20 PM

Selfish or just plain cruelty?

2 more days till the end of N'level prelims. 2 more weeks' to N'level. Geesssshhh... Time passes by so fast. In matter of time,almost everything will end. Exams,sec 4 life and some other things that better off not said. I'm ready for almost all the things that's ending. But in other part,I can't accept.

I'm planning to have a class pit at the end of the year. And I need my classmate to chip in some cash.

Dear,dear.. Will you be there to accompany me when I'm taking my N'level result?

8 more days and his 18 years old. Proud to see my bf getting old. hehe...

Yesterday,me and my other 3 friends',Dil,Samir and Hyder went to Singpost to accompany Mir to pay his bills. And we actually saw this mad woman scolding someone. We turn and that woman was scolding me. She actually said "Ehk tak cukup satu laki per?!" And there's more but can't hear clearly. Crazy or what?!

I love bf and I love my fiends'! I'm plain bored and busy with Art.

Dear,dear.. u syg i tak?? hehe.. Syg u!!!

+Somehow,I miss last year batch..+

.I Wrote This Shit.

~~Monday, August 18, 2008~~

3:28 PM

Gone into the Oblivion.. Once again..

So ethusiastic at the beginning. Tranquility at last. Fighting through this war,war of love,friendship,family and schools. This year has given me a big impact in my life. Challenges after challenges. Fights after fights. Too busy,or maybe too afraid,that I actually force myself to ignore this diary,where almost every people that I don't know,read. My motif,to stay out of trouble. I bottle up all those feelings I had with me since the day that that someone actually made an impact in my life.

Life is getting complicated. Mum and Dad can't compromise things. Friends,was blown by the wind without any warnings. Atleast my so called "heart and soul" friends still stick to each other. And that term wasn't use by any one of us. Its my teacher.

Everything that we do,will always have a fullstop. But to my thinking,why want to end it when you know we could put that fullstop much way longer. Its affecting my studies though but I know I can make it through. I won't give up. I don't want to go to a waste. After all the hardship I've gone through. Accepting fate that was written not by any human living in this world. We were born with a stroyline that no one actually knows.

I'm having this feeling of scared,so afraid. I'm not ready to face that reality. But its near. Which I don't know when,where and the fucking lucky time. If only I could rewind those times where we got to know each other. Ever so sweet yet pain. The time I actually took that risk,despite stories,horrible background. I took your words. I kept in my heart,sealed. My promise.

Not many will enter this blog of mine and read this crappy shits. I don't think people will get what I'm trying to say. I respect that. As different people think other people differently,in a way,negatively. Don't get me wrong,I'm just stating the fact. More stories that I want to share,but if there's only people who could just share a piece of your thoughts and stop criticising me. I'm tired and had enough of those words. Wish me luck for my N'level in two weeks' time.

Oh yea.. For those regular reader's,if you really do read about my shits,do tag. Thanks.

+ Statement: Battling and Accepting + my dear nat,its hard on me..im sorry..

.I Wrote This Shit.