Two face?? Don't shoot anything that is so untrue lady.
I did not hate you okie ladies? All I hate is just the way you treat me. Think back. If I hate you,why do I still hang around with you? I must say,I'm sick of this.
You talk to each other,share jokes and secrets. I keep shut. I don't mind if you don't trust me. But I still don't accept that you called me two face and yeah hate you?? What the hell?? This is untrue,dear lady.
Dissapointed. But you still misunderstand. Get the facts from my mouth first. I'm neither angry nor jealous. But the feeling of left out.
I missed going out with. But your too busy to have time for me. I know I'm no more your best friend. Its ok. People changed. I wish I could just ignore this,but its too painful to see this. Do you even notice that? All you care is just people abhoring you and ignore. Can't you just asked why? And reality check,I do not hate you. Must I have to speak up for you,darling? Don't you have feelings?? Can't you just ask yourself why I'm being this way? I know I may be petty. And you should know why I kept this from you. Only if you really have forgotten me.
And to my dear pendek,thanks. That's all.
+Is it the end? Blue Ladies?+
.I Wrote This Shit.
Saturday, March 15, 2008
5:52 PM
I'm better off to be a 'BEROK' huh?? Hmm...
Okie fine. I guess I'm better off one. You said you don't trust guys? Your bandmates are guys,aren't they? Not 'bapok's nor any kind of animals kan?? Forget it. You wanted fair? Sure do. Go ahead. If you think its fair,than do what you think its fair. I won't be giving any revenge,I promise. I shall be a dickhead. Dumb as ever. I will keep this pain. All my problems,I shall share it with my plushie. Fine. I had enough and I'm sick of fighting over my happiness.
Thanks for the advice this 'someone'. It won't work for me. I'm too weak. And yea if you want to bring up this matter,go ahead. I shall listen but no rebels. Thanks.
+Had enough.+
.I Wrote This Shit.
Thursday, March 13, 2008
11:00 PM
So? Do they care?? No.
Why bother confiding if they don't understand or maybe,jumping to conclusion? I'm lost within words. Mum support and give me the strength. Dad? Don't bother. I can catch up with studies and yeah its improving. Except Humanities. Seriuosly,I need help for it. I'm sick with friends. I just don't know why. Sorry my Blue Ladies. But I do still treasure you and of course appreciate your help before. And 2006 still vivid in my mind.
Let me create my own kind of world A world full of happiness Let me have the ability to rebuild this old world To a wonderful one
I want to stop the clock from ticking away I want to turn back time to a time Where everyone is having their fun And enjoying the time of the day
Girls. Ladies. Woman.
Some guys took this sex for granted. Oh I'm not hitting to someone I knew or anything. Its just something to talk about for this post. Some guys thought that ladies,chase guys for either money or popularity. Maybe this is true but it don't really apply to all ladies. We can materialistic too,at times but we have our own way of thinking too. We love to shop for accesories,clothes and such. Shopping is not about wasting our money away. We buy things to wear or put on us so that we can look good. Without all this,will you guys came chasing for us ladies? If we were to be 'bo chap',no touch up,not even an earring to look more charming,t-shirt and jeans,all natural,will you come up to us to get to know each other? Absolutely not. The first priority for guys is looks than came attitude. So guys,don't blame us girls for wasting money away shopping. Money is meant to be spent anyway. Not for you to keep under your bed till your dying day. That will be so dumb. Saving for the future will be okay. And girls love to be crazy at times. So do understand us girls okay boys?? (girls/ladies. guys/boys. doesnt make any diff. just the age. still same sex aint it?)
And waiting for another 5 years for having my own bike is making me crazy. I was dreaming to own a bike in 2 years' time but it seem that the law has changed. No more bike for 18 year old teen. *sob sob*
+ Freaky Teens Down The Streets +
.I Wrote This Shit.
Sunday, March 9, 2008
4:59 PM
Wasting my time away with nothing!
I'm fucking bored now. No one to go out with. House full of noise made by my little cousins. Neighbour busy with camps and boyfriend with friends. My friend? M.I.A. Receive no calls to asked to tag along to anywhere. If only I have atleast 50 bucks and I'm off to Bugis,alone shall do to buy stuff for myself. Or maybe have more piercing.
I had a dream. Of this guy. Never fails to see his charming face in my dream. I wonder who he is. So sweet,romantic and everything that I dream of in my love life. Its like,my envious for other couples,especially lucky girls who had the guy I always dream for,is gone. No more envy,no more jealousy. But hey,dream is forever dreams. In reality,I can never get the the things I dream of. His still in my heart,loved and cared. My naughty one,Taufik!
It seems that I don't have any friends even though they are my friends. Blue Ladies?? It seems that I'm gone from that group. No more girl outings. We are just like friends in school but after school... Hmm.. No comment.
Pictures to be upload but this computer isn't mine so I find it hard to transfer and post it to my Friendster. I wonder what had happen to my Friendster profile? Has he been checking it for me?? I wonder.
The more bored I get,the more fucked up I be. I guess that will be it for my blog post for today.
+Bored always. Love,come and go.+
.I Wrote This Shit.
Saturday, March 8, 2008
10:39 PM
Happy 8 Month Anniversary my LOVE!!!
Yesterday is our 8 month anniversary. And we went to Tampines GV to catch a movie. We watch The Leap Years. The movie was average,its just about love and love and love and tears for girls. Hehehe.. (indeed there's tears for me and his shirt is damp. nyahnyahnyah!)
He bought for me two pairs of cute ear stud. Thanks dear! And indeed it was my first time to watch a movie with some I deeply love. I enjoy this anniversary. Love him!!! Not love his money tau. (too late to apologise but hey i'm still ur student and ur my teacher,dear love...)
Not much activities for today. Hope to meet him tomorrow. I don't want to waste my time watching tv. I want to waste hours and hours of my time with him! (dear,let's catch another movie nxt time. if have money. hehe..)
I want to apologise to my darling Aishah Cicak for not being able to come for your chalet at 29th March. Indeed my dad still took me as a toodler who need them to hold my hand when I'm going anywhere. Not my mum,she wanted me to be an independant lady. Dad is too sensitive and always think negatively. Like me too larh..
That's the end for my post today as my dad wants to use the computer.
+My Love for him is INSANE!+
.I Wrote This Shit.
Tuesday, March 4, 2008
5:27 PM
If you could just realise on what I've just realise...
Its been few days' I haven't been updating. This week is full with DT(Diagnostic Test). Sat for English paper already and tomorrow will be Science. I have yet to study but I don't understand both Chemistry and Physics subject. I tend to get tired during that lesson. But hey I've improve my Maths subject!!! Proud of it! *winks*
-and i'm nervous for oral next week. grrr....
I miss shopping!!! But I have yet to collect money to buy presents for my dearest Aishah Cicak and Mai Lembu. I want to buy more earrings,hair cream,tops and engraved necklace. I've been wanting an engraved silver necklace since last 2 years'. Anyone can buy for me?? Hehehe... Kidding. I earn my own money and bought it for myself much way better than waiting for anyone to give as a gift. And mum have yet to buy me the pendant heart silver necklace that I want for my birthday this year!! Nyahnyahnyahnyah!!!!!!
Shop shop shop!!! Music music music!!! Dance dance dance!!! Love love love!!! That's all I ever want in this life. My love just let me hear a song title Fall in Love by Secondhand Serenade. I've fallen in love with that song. The lyrics,the voice and the rythm was so sweet. If any guy would sing for me on that song,I'll be touched and of course love that person much!!! Lalalala...
And and and... I got a new handphone!!! A handphone of my very own!!! Weeeeeee!!!! Thanks dad for buying me a new handphone and I don't have to wait any more longer. I'm planning to have my own band after my N'level. But I need help and support from friends,families and loved ones. That will come later.
And I'm looking forward for this Friday to watch The Leap Years with dearest Taufik. And curfews' is still hanging on me...
