> My unseen sins

~~Monday, October 8, 2007~~

9:12 PM

Doubting your love before. Can you assure me?

Weird title ehk? Well,I want to thanks Ummairah and
Yun Yuan for the gift. Appreciate it alot darling. And
I apologise for not giving you anything Yun Yuan. Haven't
been receiving any money from parents this few weeks.
Well,Happy 15th BirthDay dearest Yun Yuan.

I'm done with end of year paper today. And overall,the
paper's are average. But the most subject that kills my
brain was Chesmistry and of course Maths. Damn.
The last paper was History,followed by Art. I didn't study
much for History thus I write nonsense,which I knew it
has nothing to do with the question it asked for. And for
Art,I wasn't in the mood for drawing of all the sudden and
my final piece was a disastrous. Stick man,ciggies,gambling,
all those things that has to do with underground stuff. The
teacher was staring at my piece and laugh. I laughed too.
Damn. Stupid darn shit.

Done with exam. And soon,the fasting month. 4 more days
and we can enjoy the daylight with ciggies and such. And
speaking of ciggies,it has been almost a week I last smoke.
Like I said before,parents didn't give me any money. No
money,no ciggies. Sad demon seyy. Appetite grew a little
bigger due to this. Ashraf was true though. If a smoker tries
to quit or didn't smoke for almost a week,their appetite will
eventually grew. So,I'm so going to take 5 bucks from my
mum's wallet tomorrow.

Oh yeah. Dear,thanks for the story of yours ehk. It somehow
reminds me of the past which was a big blow for me and thus
I can't stop crying. Even though your past has a bigger impact
than mine,I roughly knew how painful it was. The part where
you lose you love one,is the same as how I lose mine. If you
don't know,I have doubts in our relationship for the first few
weeks. Well,you loved her so much. And I kept thinking
why I have to be in your life when you aren't assure in what
you are doing. Oh well,I don't wish to fight over this anymore.
Never did I expect I can be so patient on you for this 3 months,
or more. And honestly,I never doubt in loving you. Let's cherish
the times' we had now. We can never know when all of this will
end. Good luck for your O'level dear.

+Ending this post with tears+

.I Wrote This Shit.