> My unseen sins

~~Tuesday, August 7, 2007~~

6:15 PM

And today's the day.

Happy One Month Anniversary my love! And same goes to all
those couples who falls on the same date. Thanks for all the wishes my
dearest friends'!

To my love,thanks for the gift you gave. Those word touches my heart
which then tears flowing down my cheek. So sweet of you to actually went there
just to get me those sand. My dear,this may be words I'm typing right now but
I'm sincere in telling you this. I'll be by your side no matter what. Come what may.
I'll stand by you. Even you're going through those hurtful memories of yours' or
any obstacle that you can't get through. I may not know what you are thinking
or how hurtful you are feeling. Don't be afraid to cry. Don't try to run from me
'cause I will never let you go 'till ever. For you're the precious one among others.
I need you and only you in my life. And I don't think I can take the blow if you
were to leave me. Till then I love you,my dearest Taufik...

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Those understanding and trust. My pain towards my parents.

And again,I'm totally hurt to those word they told me. Don't they trust me anymore?
Am I that bad? Even if you listen to what I have to say,you never gave me the rights
yet you said I'm being rude to you. I can't be listening to you to all those things you demand
ok. I know you are still holding the responsibility as a parent but why can't you understand
what I'm going through? Why?! I'm so sick of your words. Everytime I asked you the
permission to go out with my friends' or my love ones,you always gave the same answer.
"No! Dok umah jek. Takyah nk kluar dgn kwn kau tu!" Oh how hurtful to hear those
sentences. I'm bored sitting at home having nothing to do. Telling me to study and study
and help mum out with the chores and such. I'm not the housewife here! I can't be sitting around at home looking my younger sister's and brother's. I always thought of leaving them at home alone but I pity them. 'Cause I know I'm responsible for them no matter what. And I know they wanted to see their sister to acheive her goal. Even though they are still young and fresh,not knowing how I feel,but I have to remember,they are my siblings. I have only them,four of them. Even though mum and dad is busy with work and such. Haish.. If only I wasn't born,I guess I won't be a trouble to you,my parents.

And I'm looking forward to my classmate chalet this Friday. If I don't go,I will be missing
those fun. Haish..

.I Wrote This Shit.