Here's a story of a girl,
Living in the lonely world,
A hidden note, A secret crush,
A little boy who talks too much.

Well, I'm standing in the crowd,
And when you smile I check you out,
But you don't even know my name,
You're too busy playing games,

And I want you too know,
If you lose your way,
I won't let you go.

If I cut my hair,
If I change my clothes,
Will you notice me?

If I bite my lip,
If I say hello,
Will you notice me?


VadiellaY

-Vadiella-

Fuck it!Y


The SacrilegiousY

My Star.

Star Fruit.
Beng Sticko.
Hady Molly.

Faeza Darling.
Khaleeda Sweetie.
Ummairah Sweetheart.

Lyza Chip'munk.
Weeeee Kiong.
Shahmir SSS
aYEEN Hearts <333
aYEEN Hearts <333

The glorious;

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Thursday, July 26, 2007
6:33 PM

Finally,I'm updating my blog once again. I'm just lazy to switch on
my laptop. It has been 10 days since the last post I posted. Alot of
things actually happen. But the conflicts among my dad has always
been disturbing my mind. I can't sleep well these few days. I'm so fucked
up sitting at home listening to his stupid squabbling. Fucked does nonsense dad!


And I'm still thinking on how to make it up to him. Its hard for me to spent
time with as my father will go round the Tampines area to look for me
like a mad old man like last year. When will I ever have my own freedom?
When will I ever direct my own life? I have my own dreams and goals.
You can't force me to do something when I don't like too ok dad? When
will you ever listen to me? Or even understand how I feel.


School was fine today. Chemistry is such a disastrous! I don't even understand
what the question wants. Physics was neutral. I forgot the methad on
work done and such. And Faeza,don't ever show anyone the picture you
took of me ok! So stupid tauu..


Tomorrow will be the tiring day for me. NCC training. Bleargghhhh..
Next week,my schedule is almost full. I have to do my detention for not
going to my Art Course on Wednesday and I have Maths DT the next and
Art Course again on Wed and NCC training and a wedding ceremony
on weekends. Ehk when can I have my rest?? Bleargghhh..


Once again I'm writing nonsense
Next after next there's problems
When will this ever end?
When will I have a tranquil life with a happy relationships and family?


Till then.

.I Wrote This Shit.

Monday, July 16, 2007
7:01 PM

The confliction of friends.

Well,I'm having a problem with one of my classmate. Which isn't
a major problem for I know this can be fixed.

Well,me and that person never been in good terms. Always fight and
calling each other bad names. I don't get it why. I never disturb him or bitch about
him. For what I knew I always irritate my girlfriends' and other Chinese ladies' and guy's.
I tried to be in good terms with him but I don't know why he hate me so much.
What wrong I have done to you? Even though you use harsh words to me,I kept quiet
and take it as a joke. But sometimes' you don't have the limits too. Yet you can say
my attitude is like fuck. Whatever it is dear friend,hate me for everything but still
you are a friend I would treasure like the rest of my friends'.

And I hope you notice what I meant. You don't even want to talk to me face to face
and state things clear. So,I'm not to blame for I want to make things clear but you insist
not. Put that in mind. If you still insist not being in good terms with,than I have no words
to say.

Think about it as we left few years' to be together and soon we all going to leave the school.
And we may not see each other often as we are busy acheiving our goals and dreams'.

Mark my words to the friend I'm refering to.

hate me for who i am. don't hate me for rumours and my esthusiasm.

.I Wrote This Shit.

Friday, July 13, 2007
7:34 PM

This few days' has making me fucking tired and fucked up. All day I have to take my
little ones from my mum's house and back home. Wednesday and Friday I won't for I have my Art Course on Wednesday and NCC Training on Friday. Tomorrow will be having Olympic Run for CIP's. I don't I would go for I'm tired of running here and there. I rather follow my
mum to work.

And I'm fucked up with my mum. She's not suppose to go to work starting from to day 'till
next week but she has too. I need her to be home so I can go out with my friends but
she... Haish.. Nevermind. I'm tired of talking about her. She don't even listen to what I'm
trying to tell anyway. I have three things to settle this month. Friends,family and relationship.

I don't I want to talk about my family anymore. They don't even care how I feel
accept for theirs. Friends' and relationship,I have to re-balanced the time I'm spending
with them. I don't want any of them to feel left out or whatever.

I have yet to upload pictures that was taken on 11/07/07. Next time then.

I have yet to say. I'm sorry my dear for not spending much time with you. I
tried but I fail. Anyway,love you dear..

.I Wrote This Shit.

Tuesday, July 10, 2007
4:35 PM

I'm sick of home. On being controlled by my parents.
Do they ever know how I feel deep inside?? What I actually want??
I never get to feel the situation of freedom. To hang around
with your friends at night without your parents nag around.
Mum is busy working and dad,I don't know what the hell his doing.
Everytime I wanted to meet him,my dad will never give
me the permission. This is what I hate about parents. Asked for
permission,they don't allow. Didn't ask or lied they scold.

Now,I didn't get the time to spent with him. He felt left out.
I didn't know what to do now. Why can't my parents just be more
understanding??

Now,I have dissapointed him for not meeting him. I'm really sorry dear I can't
meet you.

I really wish my parents would somehow understand me more. Haish..

.I Wrote This Shit.

Monday, July 9, 2007
11:02 PM

And nothing much happen this few days.
All I know I love him. That's all. And I have become
a lunatic in class. Thanks to Kenneth for calling me Snow White.
I'm not white as you can see larh kan. You wear specs and you can't
see properly. Hehe..

I have yet to watch Transformers. Who want to accompany me??
And Harry Potter and The Order of The Phoenix is opening soon.
Going to watch it with my two best girlfriends.

Ok I'm off. Sleepy demon. Nights. Till then..

.I Wrote This Shit.

Saturday, July 7, 2007
11:43 PM

It has been days I haven't been updating my blog. Nothing
much happen recently. 07/07/07 was yesterday's date. Congrats to
Hadi and ???. And yesterday night was a shocking for me. Didn't expect him to
say those words. From confuse to speechless.

My dear,even though I may not be perfect for you,but I will
always give you my fullest heart. To love you,to care
for you and to be always there for you. To hold you tight till ever.
And I really do love you.

My day today was pain and dissapointed. I can't meet him
for my parents won't allow. And I'm having my first day of period.
Ergghhh. Hate it.

Nothing much to say. Till then.

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