> My unseen sins

~~Monday, April 23, 2007~~

8:54 PM

Fight with mum.

Like fuck sia. Hate it.

Yeah. I know. I'm useless.

Having a girl in this family is no use.

Ya. True. Then?

Why you actually bother taking care of me

when I was born? You can throw

me to the rubbish bin perr. More better. Don't need

to live. Having no sin in this world.

I'm always useless. Always. And always a forgetful. Never remember

a single thing at chores.

I'm lazy. So??

Seriously. I'm so sick of living

in this house. All blamed me. Fuck sia.

If I'm useless,then stay home and do the fucking chores at home.

You don't need to go work what.

Dad is working.

And when did I ever asked you money everyday?

I asked when I need to buy something

for school's. Not what I want. And even when I said I want

a guitar,it doesn't mean I want it now

or tomorrow.

Only when you can afford to buy for me.

You are making me sick of this nonsense larh. You always

blame my friends as I'm being rude.

Heyy. I'm not. I'm just

stating what is fact. And telling you what I want

from you. All I want is

your trust and understanding.

You don't trust me that well. You always said

I have boyfriends. But now no more okie?? Don't any how

say larhh. I've stop this relationship

and only want to concentrate on studies and to acheive

what I want to be.

You never give those time to spent with friends.

I always feel left out when I'm with them. They talk about their day out

while I actually don't know what happen.

You are trapping me.

Counselling sucks. And I don't think

I want to have another counselling about this anymore.

Stupid.

I rather sit and watch the day past by.

Parents,so sensitive as they becoming old.

Being an idiot in school just to show I'm ok also no use. Still pain

in heart.

Haishh...

Like people say. Patience..

Evn though they sucks,but still,they are our parents.

Our flesh and blood. The only

one that can always love you for who you really are.

I guess I have to take those words just to make me calm down.

There goes another

problem in my life once again...

+thoseROSES+

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