> My unseen sins

~~Sunday, April 1, 2007~~

1:00 PM

I'm damn sick.

Vomit blood alot of times.

Headaches are killing me.

My pestering me to eat medicine.

I'm stubborn. I don't want any medicine.

My medicine is him.

Haish..

Khairiyah,why can't you just let everything go?

Let him be. Don't think he still care for you.

He is in love with someone else.

He played on you.

You are stupid Khairiyah.

This is the second time you had this pain in you.

Yet,you still want to belief in love.

Love is just a game.

I just hate everything in this world.

Nothing can cure my pain.

How I wish I could turn back time and make things right.

I really do love you.

I've reliease that its you that I need,dear.

Haish..

Why do all good things come to an end?

You said we could be friends.

But I can't accept that. I hate this phrase,"Lovers to friends"

I tried not think of you. But I miss you much,much more.

I can't stop crying. Everytime I think of us,I would take 5 sticks. And I would

vomit blood. I don't listen to no one. Mama force me to eat

medicine. I would vomit it all once again.

I tried to forget it all. But its just so hard. Why??

Why everytime I love that someone and that person

would just step out of my life??

If only I have a wish.

And that is to take my life away from this miserable

life of mine. I don't wish to see those

faces again. I don't wish to know them. I don't wish to cry anymore.

I cry silently. I cry inside of me. I cry hopelessly.

'Cause I know I never breathe your love again.

I really can't stand a day without you.

'Till day I know you,'till the day we become strangers again.

All I have to say,I thanked God I finally have the chance to know you.

I finally had enough. My last love to blossom. My

fullest love for you. I've given you my heart.

You gave me the roses and that little teddy bear. On the date of 14/02/'07.

I accept you in my life at the date of 19/02/'07.

I still keep that little present you gave. And those memories we had.

I still keep those promises to you. For not being a butch. And stopped

the slitting.

From love,we have to apart. You have to let me go.

And I don't get your reason why.

I'm happy to since have you. And to know your family members.

From the day you call me your angel,your everything.

'Till the day you said you had to let it go. I know I'm not your angel.

I know I'm not your everything.

And even though you lied,I tried to forgive.

And now if I have the money,I want to pay all those prepaids you pay

for.

I can't help to forget all those time we had.

And I can't forget someone special like you.

Thanks to my friends for helping me to get through these situation.

You may see me smile. But you can't see how my heart shattered apart.

Your name is written in my heart now.

Nothing can erased that.

See you along the streets if we are fated to meet.

See you in heaven if we aren't meant to meet again.

Thanks for faking your love. Thanks for faking your words.

And thanks for making me to had enough of all this things.

My last word for you,I miss you.

The day we end everything. 30/03/'07.

mySICKstory.

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