> My unseen sins

~~Thursday, March 29, 2007~~

7:32 PM

A tragic happened yesterday.

A day I really don't want it to happen.

I never imagined,

if he really would step out of my life.

I really can't stand a day without him.

My love for him is so deep.

When I'm typing this,

tears are rolling down my cheek once again.

I was so lost when you actually said that.

You weren't a burden to me dear.

You weren't a jinx.

You aren't a failure.

You do make me happy.

You are the light in my life dear.

You were the one who brightens the darkess side of my life.

I was crying helplessly.

I had no where to go.

I can only hope for you.

And I can only love you.

I don't care if you drink.

I don't care if you a mat-rep.

I don't care if you aren't handsome.

I don't care if you were to be rich or poor.

Seriously,I don't care about this thing.

Even though I don't like it,but I have to accept you anyway.

And why do I actually accept you in the first place?

'Cause of your heart,I trusted you. I love you.

I've long waited to find someone like you.

Having you in my life is a gift from God.

And I thanked to have found you.

My dear,

I don't know what to do now.

It feel's that I got nothing left with me now.

My heart is crying out helplessly.

If only I could hug you tightly,

And tell you how much I love you.

Abdullah Nashrun,

You are the greatest gift in this world.

Don't think you are a jinx.

How I need you so badly.

How can I make this up dear?

How am I suppose to show you that I'm always happy with you??

We are just too busy with friends that we don't have time

for each other.

Regardless of having time for each other,I even thought

that you flirt with other girls.

Haish..

Like I said,nothing you do can make my love for you less.

I love you. Deep in my heart.

Those red flowers and that cute lilttle yellow teddy bear

is the thing that bring us memories.

Haish..

I got no where out right now.

I'm stuck.

I want to live my life with you.

But I'm scared of you somehow.

My heart is full with fears.

But with you by my side,I have the strength to move on with life.

cheers my love.

.I Wrote This Shit.