> My unseen sins

~~Tuesday, March 27, 2007~~

8:08 PM

Nothing feels right. Or even nothing is right.

I thought things would

become better but everything turns out different.

I'm so ego. I'm not brave enough to tell the person how

I feel. Now,I guess I should let it all out.

Faeza,my bestest friend and the one I trust most.

I scold her just now. I know its harsh but it just come out from my

mind. You told me to put an act to just make him go away.

I did. And all of a sudden,all my emotions

fall out. And I cried for my guy. And I was like lost. You were

far way before us. Walking side by side.

And I'm at the end,watching you endlessly. I was mad.

You told me to put an act which that really becomes

reality and when you meet him you just left me behind. Can't you just

tell him that "my friends need me and can you like go home?"

I feel liked a fool. And I didn't even notice i slit my hand which 'cause

Nash hearts torn.

And why I cried 'cause of him??

Well,most people thought that me and him has fallen apart.

When I siad no,they were liked "biar betul. korang tak nmpk mcm couple siol.

korang mcm strangers gitu. "

It did actually hurts me. I cried silently.

But I don't really care much. But it feels that what they

say do make sense. Haish.. Seriously. Its confusing. But my heart

always tell me even though I feel that I was being fooled,I know,I love him.

And that's for sure. The only sentence I can say is that,

"You can fool around with me but to tell you

honestly,nothing can make my love for you less."

And that's for sure.

Oh ya. Setan(not human. its real.),

don't bother me larh. Kau nak pecah kan hubungan aku

dengan kawan2 aku dan kekasih aku kan. Cuba larh. Aku tau

kau dah menang byk kali. Kau rosakkan hubungan aku dgn

Sallimi and my family. Ok fine. Aku pon tak heran dgn Sallimi. Keluarga aku

makin hari makin ribut. So you better watch your steps. When I get my

strength back,you will be crying of shame towards

your fucking fren. You will lose. I know. God is by my side now.

See you in HELL.

cheers.

.I Wrote This Shit.