> My unseen sins

~~Friday, March 30, 2007~~

10:05 PM

How hurtful it is to be in this situation for

the second time.

I feel like a fool. Why love need to be so hurtful??

I tried to be strong but my weaknest is just to strong. Fuck me.

Oh God. Why??

You know how much I love him. You know how

strong I tried to be. You know how much

I suffer the last time. And its repeating again. You make me hate love so much this time.

I had enough. Take my life away from this world,God.

I don't wish to see the world anymore.

I don't want to see happy couples out there.

I don't want to see myself in this world again.

I don't think this hurts me anymore.

I had enough already.

Enough of wishing and hoping.

No more prayers to have a bright life.

If you don't want to take my life,then,I guess you only

want me to suffer more.

Slitting has gone away from my life. Seriously.

I've stop that habit.

Now,you can only see me crying helplessly.

I'm not blaming anyone. But I blame myself. For being stupid.

To believe in love. To trust what people says.

Khairiyah,you are just too stupid. I hate everything.

I hate myself more.

But,I miss him. But,he has step away from my life.

I was left alone once again.

Un-ashamed to cry. I need someone to lend me their shoulders.

I hope,I would never wake up and to see the sun rise again.

These wounds can never be heal.

No more love to bloom once again.

Let me be alone.

Let me live in this darkess world of mine.

Oh I'm so lost.

Oh I'm so envy those people around me being so lively.

But oh,I'm not fated to be like them.

My heart is crying out loud.

Calling for his name.

Begging not to go.

But I have to,'cause I love him.

I really do.

I heard this phrase,"If you love him,let him go.He wants

to find his happiness.And I know,you want to see him happy."

And I do.

I don't mind being so lonely.

I don't mind being so sad.

But I only want to see him happy.

And yeah,the setan wins again. So,my life is part of them.

Goodbye the old cheerful,idiotic,irritating and bitchy Khairiyah.

Bring the new one which isn't like a bitch.

Fight for nothing. Let they bully me.

The fucking Khairiyah.

Goodbye.

no more cheers this time.

mySICKstory.

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