> My unseen sins

~~Wednesday, February 7, 2007~~

9:16 PM

Well,I've lots in mind. And I don't

know where to start. I've been wondering

why I need to be like this. You see,I

used to treat my loved ones well. But now I treat

them like nothing. I've seen them

being hurt by me. And I'm

really dissapoited in myself. When I read

his blog,I cry. Yes I did. I'm very emotional. I can

feel what he is going through. Yet,

I can still do this to him. Its

really unfair for him. He do understand my

position but I didn't care about

his feeling.

I'm so cruel. Totally!!! And

I'm so dissapointed in myself. Yes I do.

I'm stupid. Why I should do this?? If I said sorry,

it would be no use. Still his hurt deep inside.

Of course I love him deeply. But

I can't control my anger,

my attitude. I can't explain what happen.

No. I can't erase the thing what I've done. How could

this happen to me?? Gosh.

I've hurt him. And I wish I would fix that. I

don't want what past happen to

present again. I'm sick of this life. Got nowhere

to run. I feel like screaming!!!

Again,crying dosen't

work. I've lost my friend. Faeza,was taken

by Aisyah. Damn!!! She was

like my total TWIN! She do

what I always do. I always played the

drums,and so does she follow. Gosh. Things getting

worst each time. And I really hope Faeza

would realise her mistake. How can she

do this towards me. It really hurt me. I really

trust her,make her as my

sister,close one. But when she found

a new friend,she would

left the old one. Haish. Khaleeda,

Ummairah and myself is dissapointed in Faeza.

And of course tomorrow,I'm

going to confront Aisyah. Like I told

my friends,no one can be me. Its my life,my

wants and need. My passion and

my attitude. And

about the past,still I can't accept

what Faeza did to me. All the secret's she never

tell me else her "other BEST FRIEND" knows. Gosh.

She is so making me hurt.

And of course sorry won't make it up.

Till the day I would see you again peepz. I have

to go. See you around

in school! Toodlezz!!!

cheers.=)

.I Wrote This Shit.