> My unseen sins

~~Saturday, February 24, 2007~~

11:47 PM

Today,nothing

much happen. Just followed my

mum go work at Bukit Panjang there.

I miss Nash alot. I

wish I could meet him and hug him tight.

Well,I'm feeling

kinda scared right now. Don't

know why. Maybe,

I'm scared if someday he left me. Like Sallimi used

to leave me like that. I

don't know why I love Nash alot.

He took my heart away.

Only his name is written in my heart. I really

hope and pray that

our future is bright. We would

be together through thick and thin. Wonderful

dreams. I rather not talk

about the past 'cause its just making

my heart to ache. Thinking

of the bright future is

better. But what if all my dreams are shattered

into pieces?? Will I lost hope in myself

and just give up in

love just like that?? Well,I can't predict

my future. All I can do is to pray to God and just follow

with the flow. All I want for now

is to change the bad side of me. I really don't want

to hurt his heart. I've failed once and

i don't want it to happen again.

All I want in life is

successful in everything I do and

to have a happy relationship with him. And also

among my friends,not to

make have any fights over a tiny problems.

I wish my life could be any brighter.

Its karma I'm

going through. I've done alot

of mistake before. My family are just

fine. Only to win

my parents trust back.

Now,my mind

is not in peace. I'm feeling very cold.

Feeling so scared to face

the future. I'm scared if anything would happen.

If my dreams are

to be reached,I would die in peace.

The only person that

knows what I'm feeling now is God.

I feel like

crying now. But it will just make me go crazy.

I want a new life.

A better life. I want to be

a better girl. And still,I'm thinking of Nash.

All I want him to know is that

I love him alot.

Even though he drink or people say he

is "matrep". What matter is that I love him for

who he is. Well,I confess. I just don't like him drink. But

I can't force him. Its his life. Its

his freedom.

'Till here I end.

After writing all those thoughts

in this blogger of mine. And last of all,before I

end my this,I want to thanks

to my Blue Ladies for helping me going through my life of

doom. And also Nash. Thanks

for loving me. I'm proud to have you in

my life. You are the sweetest guy I ever met. You have

conquer my heart. Your name is

written all over my heart. I'm sorry if

I ever hurt you. I didn't meant it. I love you and only

you. Muackksss!!

cheers to all. =)

.I Wrote This Shit.